i sailed seas of emotion to wander a forest of scars
i am a dance of light and darkness
"Yeah, you were in the back. Interesting, given that you were supposed to be the leader." She raises her lip in another snarl, leopard fangs glinting pale in the dim light.
And then he brings up her choice to choose Jyoti, and Amalia nearly reels back in pain, guilt and fury blazing equally over her expressive features. He's right, she did make a choice, the only one she could in that moment. The one she would have to make again, compelled by the selfishness of a soulmate. "At least I saved someone."
She's standing again, her hands on the table, practically vibrating in her rage. "At least I took some action. At least I protected someone. And yeah, maybe I could have done differently, and it fucking kills me to think about it. You think I don't replay it all in my head? You think I don't wonder what would have happened if I made different decisions? Adam was my best friend. I would have done anything for him."
Taking a deep, shuddering breath, Amalia raises the mug back to her lips and takes another gulp of the rum. "But at the end of the day what happened happened. At least I'm not being a fucking liar about it."
And then he brings up her choice to choose Jyoti, and Amalia nearly reels back in pain, guilt and fury blazing equally over her expressive features. He's right, she did make a choice, the only one she could in that moment. The one she would have to make again, compelled by the selfishness of a soulmate. "At least I saved someone."
She's standing again, her hands on the table, practically vibrating in her rage. "At least I took some action. At least I protected someone. And yeah, maybe I could have done differently, and it fucking kills me to think about it. You think I don't replay it all in my head? You think I don't wonder what would have happened if I made different decisions? Adam was my best friend. I would have done anything for him."
Taking a deep, shuddering breath, Amalia raises the mug back to her lips and takes another gulp of the rum. "But at the end of the day what happened happened. At least I'm not being a fucking liar about it."
a galaxy of shadows and stars
Amalia
