EVIE
Of course he doesn't react as she is used to. Admittedly she'd hoped that he would, that she could chase him away with the vitriol she spews and keep him at great length with her denials. But if they were the same people as they had been in the past, in those years when that would have worked, then they never would have begun tentatively rebuilding their relationship. They wouldn't be here in the first place, Sam with his misplaced earnestness and she with her crumbling facade of lies.
The Voice told him, because of fucking course she did. Evie can't help the wave of betrayal that takes her under, the bitterness and hatred at the unfairness of it all. Apparently even the New Gods are willing to forsake her, to shatter any semblance of privacy she may have clung to. It nearly makes her throw off his touch when it comes, hurt and lost in this vast ocean she finds herself in. But all she can manage is the tensing of her shoulders before she crumples, leaning slightly into his touch as his words more than anything come through to her. Because Sam's strength has always been subtle and moving, has always been in books and words and a sincerity that even Evie cannot fully contest.
"Your own Goddess invaded my privacy to share a secret I held all my life, that's how much all the Gods - New and Old - hate people like me," she spits bitterly, but as she turns to look at her twin there are tears in her eyes and a wobble to her lips that she forces into a thin line to keep herself from truly crying. Holding onto her anger for dear life, because she doesn't want Sam to see below that veneer of control to the terrified, hopeless girl beneath. "You thought my life was perfect, of course I couldn't tell you. I've been hiding this my entire life, why would I think I could tell you any of this?" She'd been just as cruel in turn, having despised Sam for his whining over being Ascended, over getting a real family even if it had been against his will.
The Voice told him, because of fucking course she did. Evie can't help the wave of betrayal that takes her under, the bitterness and hatred at the unfairness of it all. Apparently even the New Gods are willing to forsake her, to shatter any semblance of privacy she may have clung to. It nearly makes her throw off his touch when it comes, hurt and lost in this vast ocean she finds herself in. But all she can manage is the tensing of her shoulders before she crumples, leaning slightly into his touch as his words more than anything come through to her. Because Sam's strength has always been subtle and moving, has always been in books and words and a sincerity that even Evie cannot fully contest.
"Your own Goddess invaded my privacy to share a secret I held all my life, that's how much all the Gods - New and Old - hate people like me," she spits bitterly, but as she turns to look at her twin there are tears in her eyes and a wobble to her lips that she forces into a thin line to keep herself from truly crying. Holding onto her anger for dear life, because she doesn't want Sam to see below that veneer of control to the terrified, hopeless girl beneath. "You thought my life was perfect, of course I couldn't tell you. I've been hiding this my entire life, why would I think I could tell you any of this?" She'd been just as cruel in turn, having despised Sam for his whining over being Ascended, over getting a real family even if it had been against his will.
Don't look up, just let them think
There's no place else you'd rather be
There's no place else you'd rather be
