Staying silent for a long moment, Loren finally sighed. "And if I mean it even when I'm joking?" Shaking his head, he gave Weaver a suitably cowed look. "I know. It's...gods, the worst part is I think I'm a good person, even if I've done some pretty shitty things."
He ran a hand through his hair. "I'm just afraid of...accepting that? Because it means I won't be as vigilant for when I slip back into bad behaviors." Tone a bit subdued, he shrugged, hoping she would understand his less than coherent thought process.
Hesitating, he finally nodded slowly. "Almost always." Cheeks flushing a bit with embarrassment, he spread his hands ina 'what can you do' gesture. "I've been honest with him. And he's been very clear that he's open to more with me." Expression troubled, he sighed.
Laughing a bit awkwardly at the mention of Seren, Loren gave Weaver a chagrined look. "There is that. Although you'll have to forgive me if I stay on the outskirts of the party, given who I imagine will be in attendance." That wasn't a joke, no matter how much he tried to make it sound like one.
He ran a hand through his hair. "I'm just afraid of...accepting that? Because it means I won't be as vigilant for when I slip back into bad behaviors." Tone a bit subdued, he shrugged, hoping she would understand his less than coherent thought process.
Hesitating, he finally nodded slowly. "Almost always." Cheeks flushing a bit with embarrassment, he spread his hands ina 'what can you do' gesture. "I've been honest with him. And he's been very clear that he's open to more with me." Expression troubled, he sighed.
Laughing a bit awkwardly at the mention of Seren, Loren gave Weaver a chagrined look. "There is that. Although you'll have to forgive me if I stay on the outskirts of the party, given who I imagine will be in attendance." That wasn't a joke, no matter how much he tried to make it sound like one.
you are lost, hope is gone
but you must go on
Loren
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