It’s not dying I’m afraid of
She didn’t really see failure. She saw only lessons in the failures, saw stepping stones to something better. There were misstarts and missteps, there were stumbling blocks and full on roadblocks, there were twists and turns along the path. The path was half the fun though, for the destination was not really the goal. The goal was to keep going, to find one destination and then the next. For one was never enough. One was a disappointment, a letdown, because there was always more.
It was not that she forgot the past, it was simply that she knew how to keep moving. She knew how to carry her past pain, her past loses, as one carries their childhood blanket. It is a part of her, but it was not a weight.
”That is why I am asking you,” she says, some of the softness leaving her voice as all his damn walls go slamming back into place. ”And I will keep asking you, because eventually maybe you will actually think about it and try something.” He spins and sets off at a brutal pace though, which she is no longer willing to tolerate. She throws up a wall of fire in front of him, attempting to halt him in his tracks.
She follows behind him at her own pace, calling above the wind. ”Stop shutting the world out, Korbin. Fuck, stop shutting me out. Because in the end, that’s going to hurt even more.”
It was not that she forgot the past, it was simply that she knew how to keep moving. She knew how to carry her past pain, her past loses, as one carries their childhood blanket. It is a part of her, but it was not a weight.
”That is why I am asking you,” she says, some of the softness leaving her voice as all his damn walls go slamming back into place. ”And I will keep asking you, because eventually maybe you will actually think about it and try something.” He spins and sets off at a brutal pace though, which she is no longer willing to tolerate. She throws up a wall of fire in front of him, attempting to halt him in his tracks.
She follows behind him at her own pace, calling above the wind. ”Stop shutting the world out, Korbin. Fuck, stop shutting me out. Because in the end, that’s going to hurt even more.”
weaver
it’s dying without ever having lived
