He figured living was just easier

everything i knew is turning into ruins in your shadow

The Alchemist arched a brow at that. Never before had an attuned said, It's private attuned business. Nor for the hybrids, the abandoned, or the accepted. Much as the ascended tried to place themselves as just another race, they were fairly good at othering themselves. "I didn't know the ascended were in favour of democracy." He said with a bit of a shrug. A dictatorship was more like it.

Offering the bookmaker a slow smile, Remi simply shook his head. "No. I..." He ran a hand through his curls, starting at the base of his neck and awkwardly ruffling forward. "..knew they slept together. I suppose that should have made us both think there was a chance of conception. But no, it wasn't planned or anything."

THE ALCHEMIST

i thought that i'd be ready
but falling isn't steady once you let go