i said make me love myself, so that i might love you // don't make me a liar
Now that he's closer, Nate lets himself fall into an absolute stillness, his arms crossed in front of him and his eyes focused on his progenitor, his Goddess. He wonders, briefly, if there's even a point to arguing this, if he'll ever understand, when he doesn't really want to. But he listens to the explanation, humming before he responds, accepting what she says about pain easily enough. It's not the return of pain he wants, after all. "The pleasure comes with the bite, right? And the ability siphoning? Why... lock it together like that?"
Her accusation that he longs for something he knew he's given up is, unfortunately true. He might be able to hide behind his words, his accusations hurled at Sam, the blame thrown as far away from his own feet as it could be, but at the end of the day he had been told what to expect. "I don't think I really... fully grasped what it would be like. I didn't have any reason to miss it then." A weak excuse, but it's all that he's got.
As her hand comes towards him, Nate braces, expecting something far worse than the gentle touch, the warm refreshment it brings. "Why did you let him have something like that, if you're so against it?" He asks, wondering why the patch had even come into existence, if the Voice was so against it.
Her accusation that he longs for something he knew he's given up is, unfortunately true. He might be able to hide behind his words, his accusations hurled at Sam, the blame thrown as far away from his own feet as it could be, but at the end of the day he had been told what to expect. "I don't think I really... fully grasped what it would be like. I didn't have any reason to miss it then." A weak excuse, but it's all that he's got.
As her hand comes towards him, Nate braces, expecting something far worse than the gentle touch, the warm refreshment it brings. "Why did you let him have something like that, if you're so against it?" He asks, wondering why the patch had even come into existence, if the Voice was so against it.
because i swear to god // when i said it, i thought it was true
