Dear Amalia,
This is going to be one of the hardest letters I've ever written, and I don't even really know why I'm writing it. Please read until the end for me. I suppose I want your advice, even if I'm sure I already know what it's going to be.
To put the heart of the matter right here at the beginning: I have left the Voice's side and she has 'abandoned' me, stripped me of all my upgrades and sun resistance. You probably remember me talking with a stutter as a teenager...well. The Voice fixed that for me and now she has taken it away too. I can't taste or smell anymore either, and I feel considerably weaker.
However, and this is really why I'm writing to you...I still feel that I've made the right decision. I don't want to divulge details that aren't mine to share (after all, many of the Ascended are still my friends and dear to me) but The Voice has been for a while going in a direction I can't follow, too easy throwing away lives or using mind games to insist on unified following from her family. It was beginning to feel dangerous.
I want to make it clear I don't want to go to the Old Gods to become one of their disciples in the way you have. What I want to ask is if you think it is possible for Safrin or whomever else to remove the Ascended part of me that requires fluid and removes sensations like taste and smell...maybe frame it to them as a way to work against the Voice than a gift to me. I don't know. I would be willing to undertake a task for this of great magnitude.
Perhaps you think that's selfish. I'm not in my best mind right now, so please do not be too harsh in your reply...I am trying to refind who I am. There is one thing I am certain of though and that is that I am not returning to the Voice. I have realised, now that I am free, that I do not want to be under anyone elses control ever again.
This is going to be one of the hardest letters I've ever written, and I don't even really know why I'm writing it. Please read until the end for me. I suppose I want your advice, even if I'm sure I already know what it's going to be.
To put the heart of the matter right here at the beginning: I have left the Voice's side and she has 'abandoned' me, stripped me of all my upgrades and sun resistance. You probably remember me talking with a stutter as a teenager...well. The Voice fixed that for me and now she has taken it away too. I can't taste or smell anymore either, and I feel considerably weaker.
However, and this is really why I'm writing to you...I still feel that I've made the right decision. I don't want to divulge details that aren't mine to share (after all, many of the Ascended are still my friends and dear to me) but The Voice has been for a while going in a direction I can't follow, too easy throwing away lives or using mind games to insist on unified following from her family. It was beginning to feel dangerous.
I want to make it clear I don't want to go to the Old Gods to become one of their disciples in the way you have. What I want to ask is if you think it is possible for Safrin or whomever else to remove the Ascended part of me that requires fluid and removes sensations like taste and smell...maybe frame it to them as a way to work against the Voice than a gift to me. I don't know. I would be willing to undertake a task for this of great magnitude.
Perhaps you think that's selfish. I'm not in my best mind right now, so please do not be too harsh in your reply...I am trying to refind who I am. There is one thing I am certain of though and that is that I am not returning to the Voice. I have realised, now that I am free, that I do not want to be under anyone elses control ever again.
Yours Sincerely,
Samuel
