(SE) so we light up (O)

you should know, that i'm a ticking time bomb

and you're getting close

There is time, he realizes this, but he’s too caught up in the fact that he needs to be good at something in order to pursue it. And it’s a challenge, going from learning how to be a soldier from the moment he was a child, learning to become something more and other seemed almost unthought of. As for his happiness? He doesn’t remember a time where he was truly happy, without something else eating at him. And all he can do is try to remain strong, his father's voice echoing in his head about being weak and showing that weakness, the disgrace it was.

He exhales a long sigh as her arm wraps around him and his balance is put off a bit, leaning into her embrace to catch himself. His arm snakes out to wrap around her too and he’s not sure what it is about what she says but it causes that string to break, whatever was keeping him together. A quiet sound leaves him, shuddering a bit into her embrace, thankful for the rain, swallowing down the tightness of his throat. “It’s all I know, Vai.” A quiet and hoarse admission, fighting injustice regardless of Arbiter or not. He can’t even comment on the idea of sailing, because once he wasn’t hunted anymore he’d learned to love the earth beneath his feet far too much to hop on a boat and follow the waves.

so better watch your step, because i'm about to blow

and where the pieces land i guess we'll never know

SuNJATA