I carry all I need to grow inside - give me light, give me warmth
Admittedly he's surprised she doesn't snap or continue to try and turn this into an argument. Harper is not good at arguments, more the type to retreat and cool down, always too afraid of losing any of his tightly locked down self-control. Of...blanking out. Hurting someone. So instead he sighs and smiles, relieved, and leans into the kiss she places on his nose. "I have to worry, have to think of every possible outcome. It's all that's kept me alive sometimes. But I'll try to be better." It's all he can promise her sincerely. To try. To strive to be better for both their sakes. For their relationship.
"If I can keep you from their clutches, you have to know I'll do whatever it takes. You know that right? Which is why it kills me to hear you say you'll distract them." He wants to keep her safe, far away from all this, even if it means getting his own hands dirty. Something he hasn't had to do since falling into Caido. "I'm sorry, that's not what I'm trying to imply. But they're both older men, the safety of their child should be their primary concern, not yours. If I can help, I will. I'd rather it be me than you, any time. Okay?" He reaches to cup her cheek, shadows in his pretty blue eyes. "I already lost one person I loved to war. I can't do it again."
"If I can keep you from their clutches, you have to know I'll do whatever it takes. You know that right? Which is why it kills me to hear you say you'll distract them." He wants to keep her safe, far away from all this, even if it means getting his own hands dirty. Something he hasn't had to do since falling into Caido. "I'm sorry, that's not what I'm trying to imply. But they're both older men, the safety of their child should be their primary concern, not yours. If I can help, I will. I'd rather it be me than you, any time. Okay?" He reaches to cup her cheek, shadows in his pretty blue eyes. "I already lost one person I loved to war. I can't do it again."
and watch me come alive
