October
I can be the wall
when you fall down
when you fall down
You can feel the way Finn inches towards relaxation, but how something stops him. It's his mind, you both know it's his mind, and if you had the ability, you'd shut it off for a while. All you want for him is for his body to relax. He gets himself nearly there like he might properly sink against you before he tenses and uncertainty makes him stiff again. Much as you adore being cuddled like this, you're here entirely for him.
So when his breath stutters out of its rhythm, his eyes flashing open, you're right there. Sometimes it's with the wet press of your nose against his neck, somethings it's with your tongue against his fingers, sometimes it's just a soft exhale against his chest. Throughout all of this you are calm, the beat of your heart a steady and resounding thing against him, your body heat more than warm enough for the pair of you.
When you finally do crack, Finn, do it somewhere safe. Somewhere you can find all your pieces again. With someone who will put you back together. You think, knowing he can't hear you, but wishing you could extend the groundedness you feel through the attuned bond to him, just the same. Be well, Finn.
So when his breath stutters out of its rhythm, his eyes flashing open, you're right there. Sometimes it's with the wet press of your nose against his neck, somethings it's with your tongue against his fingers, sometimes it's just a soft exhale against his chest. Throughout all of this you are calm, the beat of your heart a steady and resounding thing against him, your body heat more than warm enough for the pair of you.
When you finally do crack, Finn, do it somewhere safe. Somewhere you can find all your pieces again. With someone who will put you back together. You think, knowing he can't hear you, but wishing you could extend the groundedness you feel through the attuned bond to him, just the same. Be well, Finn.
find me on the rocks
when you break down
when you break down
