you know what’s good for you

REMI

the lullaby

I don't know who I am,
& I don't know who I'll be

Remi's nostrils flare repeatedly with every hastily sipped breath. He doesn't see Ronin at first long lashes over blue eyes, stubble by lips which are far too close, hands on his shoulders. It's all reminiscent of something else. Someone else, and the image grabs the Lullaby by the back of his eyes and forces him not to see what's right in front of him.

"I think I.." Lied to him? Saved him? Gods Remi doesn't know. He doesn't think he lied, but surely the memories in his mind couldn't be the truth. He remembers reaching into the man's chest, feeling his heart softly thudding in his palm. He was going to...to pull it out? No; he was going to beat it. Was going to keep it going on the right rhythm for Finn, for...ever, if that's what it took. Only..he had fallen, and his hands are empty now, and, "...Ronin I think I might have killed someone." He whispers, suddenly seeing very clearly his husband before him.

Looking down at his trembling hands, he's surprised to find them clean. That in itself is more alarming: they should be covered in blood.

But there's a light up in the attic
and i swear it's calling me

Code blatently stolen from queen of codes, Sky!