everything has its wonders
”I don’t like it either,” Ronin says softly. ”It feels like I’m just abandoning you to whatever might happen between now and when I can light up your dreams next.” He shakes his head, thumb brushing across Remi’s chest, and he lets the other man take his hand. ”A third projection?” he repeats, raising his eyebrows at his husband and grinning. ”Not asking for much, then. Is one functioning copy of myself not enough for you?”
Would that their levity could continue, that this could simply be a wonderful dream to soothe and replenish that which neither of them could get in those times between. Ronin’s eyes drop to Remi’s lap when he continues, the words true and tragic and not something he could rebuke even if he wanted to. ”I know you do,” he says, shoulders slumping as if realising, suddenly, how heavy it all was. ”There isn’t anyone for me to talk to.” Between he and Vai, there was never a spare moment. All his friends were sick. And Torchline and keeping Remi alive was a full time job.
Still, the Star slouches forward to lay his head on Remi’s chest, his arms winding around him anew. ”I’m a long way from broken yet. Let me have my hope for now.”
Would that their levity could continue, that this could simply be a wonderful dream to soothe and replenish that which neither of them could get in those times between. Ronin’s eyes drop to Remi’s lap when he continues, the words true and tragic and not something he could rebuke even if he wanted to. ”I know you do,” he says, shoulders slumping as if realising, suddenly, how heavy it all was. ”There isn’t anyone for me to talk to.” Between he and Vai, there was never a spare moment. All his friends were sick. And Torchline and keeping Remi alive was a full time job.
Still, the Star slouches forward to lay his head on Remi’s chest, his arms winding around him anew. ”I’m a long way from broken yet. Let me have my hope for now.”
even darkness and silence
