why else love if not to feel the stars exploding in our veins?
The almost-smile has her mirroring it, a ghost of the repartee that once came so easily rearing its bittersweet head. "It did." It fades as quickly as it appeared, smiles returning to stoicism, wounds unhealed opening again as they stand in proximity to one another, reminders of what is lost.
She throws her split wood into the sled, going for another piece when he speaks again, the words freezing her in place. Because behind them is something he doesn't say, something she hears like a hammer upon her skull. You abandoned me-- whether he says it, whether he thinks it, it weighs on Amalia like a looming storm. The guilt has followed her since that fateful day, a shadow she cannot shed no matter how much light she stands in.
She deserves the guilt, she thinks, though that doesn't make it easier to bear.
"I know." Straightening up, Amalia turns back to the behemoth, turning misty eyes upon him whether he meets them or not. Her voice quivers slightly, but it strengthens as she goes. "I... you have every right to doubt it, but... I'm sorry. I really am. I can't imagine how much what I did hurt. You deserved better than that, Dei."
She throws her split wood into the sled, going for another piece when he speaks again, the words freezing her in place. Because behind them is something he doesn't say, something she hears like a hammer upon her skull. You abandoned me-- whether he says it, whether he thinks it, it weighs on Amalia like a looming storm. The guilt has followed her since that fateful day, a shadow she cannot shed no matter how much light she stands in.
She deserves the guilt, she thinks, though that doesn't make it easier to bear.
"I know." Straightening up, Amalia turns back to the behemoth, turning misty eyes upon him whether he meets them or not. Her voice quivers slightly, but it strengthens as she goes. "I... you have every right to doubt it, but... I'm sorry. I really am. I can't imagine how much what I did hurt. You deserved better than that, Dei."
Amalia
