eyes can't shine unless there's something burning bright behind
Jack's contemplative silence was almost worse than simply saying whatever he thought about the information. It was the first time she'd seen him stop and think for a moment, without blurting out some kind of witty quip. Aurelia thought back to her first night here. They'd made a deal. She remembered his face as he told her afterwards, 'Don't fuck this up'. The words felt all too knowing now, all too... close.
After they made their way back to the shallows to await the return of the cloud mantas, after he was done wringing out his shirt, he finally said something. Only, it wasn't quite what she expected so she didn't quite have an answer at first. Swallowing her nerves, she looked around as if the right words would conjure up from the waves splashing around them.
"When I went to speak with the governor here, I told him about my past in the hopes that he would know how to help me. But, he told me that getting back was impossible," she looked down as she recalled her meeting with Sunjata, the feelings of anger that had overwhelmed her at being informed that it was - essentially - a fruitless endeavor, that her copy would assume her role in that world.
She glanced back up, "I don't know. I don't think I'll lie to them if they really need to know but, I'd rather just-" she adjusted her grip on the net, "I don't think telling Saiden - or anyone like him - that I used to kill Abandoned will leave a very good impression..." she chuckled half-heartedly, though it was still short-lived, "I'm trying to leave that life behind me now. Whether I wanted to be here or not, I am. And I don't want people to think that I'm... that kind of person. I don't want to be that person anymore."
After they made their way back to the shallows to await the return of the cloud mantas, after he was done wringing out his shirt, he finally said something. Only, it wasn't quite what she expected so she didn't quite have an answer at first. Swallowing her nerves, she looked around as if the right words would conjure up from the waves splashing around them.
"When I went to speak with the governor here, I told him about my past in the hopes that he would know how to help me. But, he told me that getting back was impossible," she looked down as she recalled her meeting with Sunjata, the feelings of anger that had overwhelmed her at being informed that it was - essentially - a fruitless endeavor, that her copy would assume her role in that world.
She glanced back up, "I don't know. I don't think I'll lie to them if they really need to know but, I'd rather just-" she adjusted her grip on the net, "I don't think telling Saiden - or anyone like him - that I used to kill Abandoned will leave a very good impression..." she chuckled half-heartedly, though it was still short-lived, "I'm trying to leave that life behind me now. Whether I wanted to be here or not, I am. And I don't want people to think that I'm... that kind of person. I don't want to be that person anymore."
Aurelia
