awareness is the enemy of sanity
"What do you want from me?" Finn asks suddenly, unable to help himself. His cheeks are still flushed beneath the scarf, a mingling of shame and fear, and he shakes his head at the alchemist. "I can't live like this. I can't... you can't just ask gods to solve your problems for you." The rest of Caido doesn't have that privilege, and it suddenly seems thoroughly unfair that Remi can say and do whatever he pleases, and have Ludo wave a hand to make it better.
"If it's just to fuck, I've done that. I've been that. I can deal with that, if it means you stay out of my head. But I--" Finn cuts himself off with a laugh that sounds almost desperate, as if he's just realised he's blurted all of this out. He slouches back against a cold wall, pinching at the bridge of his nose. "I am not stable enough for you to mess with that. I will crack. I'm already cracking."
"If it's just to fuck, I've done that. I've been that. I can deal with that, if it means you stay out of my head. But I--" Finn cuts himself off with a laugh that sounds almost desperate, as if he's just realised he's blurted all of this out. He slouches back against a cold wall, pinching at the bridge of his nose. "I am not stable enough for you to mess with that. I will crack. I'm already cracking."
for once you hear the screaming
it never stops
FINN
