no amount of guilt can change the past && no amount of anxiety can change the future
She feels she might drown in her confession, but then there's arms around her shoulders, Adam pulling her into a hug. Without thinking Amalia presses her face against his chest, trying very hard to ignore the lack of a heartbeat, the cold of his hands. He smells, feels, sounds different, but he's still her Adam, and so for now she doesn't care.
A strangled laugh at the stupid joke bubbles from her chest; she shakes her head against him, surprised by the mirth. As for what else has happened? "I fucked Ronin," she says before she can stop it, and it's the first time she's told anyone but the parties involved. From there it's a waterfall of almost frantic recounting: "Got sick. Moved to Torchline. Almost drowned. Kept dreaming about you, that we---"
--but whatever the content of her dreams might have been dies on her lips as the world shifts and spins. "Adam--!" the girl manages to cry, reaching for her friend with arms and wings and a deep seated ferocity made that much keener by loss. Her grip is strong enough to risk suffocating him had he a need to breathe, but Amalia doesn't care. She lost him once, and she will die before she lets him go again.
A strangled laugh at the stupid joke bubbles from her chest; she shakes her head against him, surprised by the mirth. As for what else has happened? "I fucked Ronin," she says before she can stop it, and it's the first time she's told anyone but the parties involved. From there it's a waterfall of almost frantic recounting: "Got sick. Moved to Torchline. Almost drowned. Kept dreaming about you, that we---"
--but whatever the content of her dreams might have been dies on her lips as the world shifts and spins. "Adam--!" the girl manages to cry, reaching for her friend with arms and wings and a deep seated ferocity made that much keener by loss. Her grip is strong enough to risk suffocating him had he a need to breathe, but Amalia doesn't care. She lost him once, and she will die before she lets him go again.
Amalia
