RONIN
the darkstar
light is easy to love.
"I thought it might be," Ronin murmurs, but there's something softer in the way he speaks now, as if he's almost looking forward to whatever fresh truths will be unearthed between them. Indeed, he shifts as if to get up and move back to bed - a space more comfortable to talk - before realising that Remi would still be the same distance away and changing his mind. So he settles in to try and tease some understanding out of the Spyglass, and he lets out a long sigh when Remi is finished.
"I met him," he says suddenly, as if he's only just realised that this is yet another meeting hidden from his husband; his cheeks colour with it. "I mean, I know I met him, when I was in his dreams and just afterwards, but... I met him again later, at the Sleeping Steps here in Stormbreak. I thought it was you, for a second..." His brow furrows. Ronin has some ideas, but he doesn't want to risk putting them in Remi's head. Then again, keeping it to himself is not in the nature of the conversation that they're having.
Nibbling at his bottom lip, Ronin takes the plunge. "Do you think he's a way you might be able to punish yourself?" he asks. "I get a sort of sweet naivete from him. He reminds me a lot like how you might have been if you had chosen books over making bombs and fireworks. And if you're struggling, with everything that's happened to you... maybe Finn brings out the worst in you, because he reminds you of yourself." It's a shot in the dark. A guess, at best.
At least Ronin's second point is something he's sure about. "I know it's just sex, but... I think I've been using it as a coping mechanism for too long. It's not healthy, and I'm worried it's one of the reasons why I use it to mend patches in our relationship. So I want to give it up. To do better."
"I met him," he says suddenly, as if he's only just realised that this is yet another meeting hidden from his husband; his cheeks colour with it. "I mean, I know I met him, when I was in his dreams and just afterwards, but... I met him again later, at the Sleeping Steps here in Stormbreak. I thought it was you, for a second..." His brow furrows. Ronin has some ideas, but he doesn't want to risk putting them in Remi's head. Then again, keeping it to himself is not in the nature of the conversation that they're having.
Nibbling at his bottom lip, Ronin takes the plunge. "Do you think he's a way you might be able to punish yourself?" he asks. "I get a sort of sweet naivete from him. He reminds me a lot like how you might have been if you had chosen books over making bombs and fireworks. And if you're struggling, with everything that's happened to you... maybe Finn brings out the worst in you, because he reminds you of yourself." It's a shot in the dark. A guess, at best.
At least Ronin's second point is something he's sure about. "I know it's just sex, but... I think I've been using it as a coping mechanism for too long. It's not healthy, and I'm worried it's one of the reasons why I use it to mend patches in our relationship. So I want to give it up. To do better."
show me your darkness.
