my heart is yours to break

right now everything you want is wrong
& right now all your dreams are waking up

"I know." Remi says with a nod, sighing out a breath. The admission is hard enough to have said, but now sitting in the ringing silence is almost more than the alchemist can endure. But perhaps that's exactly what he deserves. "I don't think it would be fair to him. Finn has his own demons. I don't think I need to add myself to their ranks." Or at least, officially add himself. No doubt Remi was already a permanent fixture in the Spyglass's nightmares whether he was there in fact, or not.

'Only Isla.' Remi agrees, with a dull shrug. "The only other temptation was only ever Ianto, and we both know that's a line I won't cross." Or...maybe Ronin didn't know. Not after everything. 'No..she's not.' Awkwardly scratching at the curls on the back of his head, Remi can only offer his husband a boyish—and perhaps inappropriate—smile. "She had to bite me a few times to learn how to be a manticore for LongNight, which...obviously I wanted her then, but after with you, I was just...on the border of the Grounds, and she was there, and she kissed me...after everything it just felt good. And with it being Isla, it was like her body didn't matter."

Well, that wasn't the full truth, Remi had learned.

"There's the..sex room in the Grounds, and..." Remi shrugs as he looks down, inspecting his fingers as if he might find a splinter and pull it out to dispel his awkwardness. "I did..like it though. It felt...very different to my experiences from before."

The Lullaby