"Yes. Yes, I do remember that." Sam said quietly, trying not to think about it too hard. He'd been delighted at the time, sure that it was the beginning of a great love story, a funny first meeting they'd tell people about for years; he'd learnt now not to let his fantasies get the better of him too early, but the memory was still painful.
As for why he left...Sam huffed out his cheeks and stared down at his feet. It was funny, in a way; Nate had only Ascended on his recommendation and had seemed for a long time not to like it, yet here he was, the more faithful of them. "Well...I mean, I suppose you could say she was the best of the Gods, but...I started on this path when I was very young. I didn't know what I was getting into - I don't think many people that Ascend do." He'd certainly never really thought about the fact that it would be the rest of his life, and that his life would be very, very long.
"I feel...felt...that it was unfair the Voice essentially could manipulate us into anything. I mean, she made the systems our bodies depend on. Without her, we die." He had first hand experience of that. "I don't always agree with everything the Ascended do. But what choice do we have? I don't know." Sam sighed, knowing if he kept talking about this he'd throw himself into these doubts again. "Ultimately I decided to try and make peace with where I was and see the goodness in the Voice, but...I do still think that she has...certainly an opportunity to manipulate us."
Careful with his words yet still anxious, Sam flexed his hands into fists and back out. "I do also think that maybe she's disconnected from what people want. That removing all of our...pleasures...is a cold way of looking at life."
As for why he left...Sam huffed out his cheeks and stared down at his feet. It was funny, in a way; Nate had only Ascended on his recommendation and had seemed for a long time not to like it, yet here he was, the more faithful of them. "Well...I mean, I suppose you could say she was the best of the Gods, but...I started on this path when I was very young. I didn't know what I was getting into - I don't think many people that Ascend do." He'd certainly never really thought about the fact that it would be the rest of his life, and that his life would be very, very long.
"I feel...felt...that it was unfair the Voice essentially could manipulate us into anything. I mean, she made the systems our bodies depend on. Without her, we die." He had first hand experience of that. "I don't always agree with everything the Ascended do. But what choice do we have? I don't know." Sam sighed, knowing if he kept talking about this he'd throw himself into these doubts again. "Ultimately I decided to try and make peace with where I was and see the goodness in the Voice, but...I do still think that she has...certainly an opportunity to manipulate us."
Careful with his words yet still anxious, Sam flexed his hands into fists and back out. "I do also think that maybe she's disconnected from what people want. That removing all of our...pleasures...is a cold way of looking at life."
SAMUEL
I somehow still lost
I somehow always do
I somehow always do
