It's Lord of the Flies in my mind tonight
“It’s not a matter of being overwhelmed,” Wessex replies gently, intending to assure Henry that she’s not running away from something just because it’s hard. Even though, yes, this job is fucking hard and she'd very much like someone to say they understand.
“It’s a matter of unity. Cohesion. I don’t know if either of you can feel the tension in the Grounds right now,” glancing between her two advisors to see if they’re aware of what she’s talking about, “But I don’t think it’s just because of the degree of clean-up involved or Sparkbird destruction.” With the tiniest of sighs, her hands claps in front of her and she looks down at them, running thumbs together while she confesses. “I was careless with the group I was with in the Outskirts and even though everyone’s alive, there’s an obvious avoidance and change in energy in the rest of the Ascended. And I can deal with that.” (Can you?)
She can. She’s always been a polarizing person. People either seem to love her or hate her, there’s very little in between.
Looking up once again at her Advisors, Wessex is both frank and sad at the same time, finding what she says something of an admission of failure. “But it raises worries about being able to unite in the future. Not just the Grounds or the Ascended, but everyone who might disagree with genocide and stand with us. And if there is someone or two or three who can unite people, they should have time to learn how to lead.” Because it does take time. She might have been better at this if she hadn’t been thrown into the fire from the get-go.
“And finally, if I’m brutally honest with myself, I’m tired. It’s -" impossible to maintain without some kind of partner. It’s exhausting. It's unfair to ask of her time and time again. But she doesn’t finish that thought, she just shakes her head and looks out the window for a moment lest she avoids whining some more. "I think my heart's always been set on exploring Caido, once the barrier lifted and we knew that was possible."
“But if there’s a solution I’m missing, I’m open to it.” After all that's what they're here for - to find solutions and do what's best for the Grounds.
“It’s a matter of unity. Cohesion. I don’t know if either of you can feel the tension in the Grounds right now,” glancing between her two advisors to see if they’re aware of what she’s talking about, “But I don’t think it’s just because of the degree of clean-up involved or Sparkbird destruction.” With the tiniest of sighs, her hands claps in front of her and she looks down at them, running thumbs together while she confesses. “I was careless with the group I was with in the Outskirts and even though everyone’s alive, there’s an obvious avoidance and change in energy in the rest of the Ascended. And I can deal with that.” (Can you?)
She can. She’s always been a polarizing person. People either seem to love her or hate her, there’s very little in between.
Looking up once again at her Advisors, Wessex is both frank and sad at the same time, finding what she says something of an admission of failure. “But it raises worries about being able to unite in the future. Not just the Grounds or the Ascended, but everyone who might disagree with genocide and stand with us. And if there is someone or two or three who can unite people, they should have time to learn how to lead.” Because it does take time. She might have been better at this if she hadn’t been thrown into the fire from the get-go.
“And finally, if I’m brutally honest with myself, I’m tired. It’s -" impossible to maintain without some kind of partner. It’s exhausting. It's unfair to ask of her time and time again. But she doesn’t finish that thought, she just shakes her head and looks out the window for a moment lest she avoids whining some more. "I think my heart's always been set on exploring Caido, once the barrier lifted and we knew that was possible."
“But if there’s a solution I’m missing, I’m open to it.” After all that's what they're here for - to find solutions and do what's best for the Grounds.
