you are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world
Finn gives her opinion the respect it deserves, the Spyglass frowning and seeming to be looking beyond the walls and carpets of her office for a moment. Wherever he goes, it's probably not good - the number of potential futures he can see spanning out before him are all very much the same. Difficult and painful, but some more than others. "I think I will wean myself off," he decides - and again, there's that pang of something that almost brings tears to his eyes. He's decided this - it's more overwhelming than he ever might have expected. "That way I suppose I will still be able to work, to some degree at least. Do you know how long it is likely to take, to do it like this?"
She clarifies and he has no idea what to make of her reaction. Whether it's good or bad, how he feels about it, anything. Finn had enjoyed his time with Tobi more, perhaps, than with anyone else. He had been looking forward to seeing her again, to taking those tentative steps towards a future that didn't seem all that dark. "Oh," he says. "Alright."
As for tonight? "I think I would prefer a full dose for this first night," he says softly. Especially if I am going to sleep in my apartment." It will be like walking into a dead man's room, and Finn will want to weep for him.
She clarifies and he has no idea what to make of her reaction. Whether it's good or bad, how he feels about it, anything. Finn had enjoyed his time with Tobi more, perhaps, than with anyone else. He had been looking forward to seeing her again, to taking those tentative steps towards a future that didn't seem all that dark. "Oh," he says. "Alright."
As for tonight? "I think I would prefer a full dose for this first night," he says softly. Especially if I am going to sleep in my apartment." It will be like walking into a dead man's room, and Finn will want to weep for him.
and that, I believe
is why you are in so much pain
FINN
