you are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world
"I suppose we will just have to wait and find out," he mumbles. "I will shower, then, and take my dose, and go to bed." It's as much of a plan for himself as he can get right now, and though it's basic and almost tragic with how stripped of any personal touches it is, this plan is all Finn's own. Baby steps, remembering again who he is and what he's allowed to do. His fingers flex against Tobi just a fraction, and it isn't clear whether he wants to hold her closer or let her go.
Blinking himself back to the present, Finn glances around the room and manages the smallest of smiles. "I will not let you sleep on the floor," he tells her softly. "Would you stay with me, if we go to the apartment? I don't..." Struggling to find the words, Finn presses his eyes shut, like he can seek them out in the dark. "It's a place that used to feel safe to me, but now it feels like it belongs to a different person. I suppose... I am worried." Worried that there's a shade of himself in there waiting, ready to haunt him.
How could you do this to yourself, Finn?
Blinking himself back to the present, Finn glances around the room and manages the smallest of smiles. "I will not let you sleep on the floor," he tells her softly. "Would you stay with me, if we go to the apartment? I don't..." Struggling to find the words, Finn presses his eyes shut, like he can seek them out in the dark. "It's a place that used to feel safe to me, but now it feels like it belongs to a different person. I suppose... I am worried." Worried that there's a shade of himself in there waiting, ready to haunt him.
How could you do this to yourself, Finn?
and that, I believe
is why you are in so much pain
FINN
