when you bury your pain
"I'm sure," Finn responds, his voice gentle but firm. "I know that it will be... however it is, regardless. I think I should get clean while there are still only two of us." It's a curiously lighthearted way of looking at it. Perhaps this might have been Finn, if the world had been kinder to him. As it is, these moments are a carefully orchestrated mix of toxins that he's just vowed to give up. Once again, life is cruel to be kind.
His hand presses against her stomach, and he does a very good job not to fling himself away at the sudden shift of something else in there. No, Finn merely jumps a bit, blinking across at Tobi with wide eyes. A number of things go through his mind: that is the weirdest thing I have ever felt, or how do you know it's a head or why is it doing that to you? In the end, though, Finn settles on, "Looks like it already doesn't know when it's supposed to sleep." He even has the decency to look warmly apologetic.
He removes his hand, glad to know that their morning routine remains undisturbed, and shifts to look down at her. "Why wouldn't I be...?" he asks. "I... I think I need you right now, Tobi, as well as wanting to be around you. It is hard to explain... You make me feel safe, a lot of the time. Without you, it's just me and my thoughts. And they are more dangerous for me than anything in this Tower."
His hand presses against her stomach, and he does a very good job not to fling himself away at the sudden shift of something else in there. No, Finn merely jumps a bit, blinking across at Tobi with wide eyes. A number of things go through his mind: that is the weirdest thing I have ever felt, or how do you know it's a head or why is it doing that to you? In the end, though, Finn settles on, "Looks like it already doesn't know when it's supposed to sleep." He even has the decency to look warmly apologetic.
He removes his hand, glad to know that their morning routine remains undisturbed, and shifts to look down at her. "Why wouldn't I be...?" he asks. "I... I think I need you right now, Tobi, as well as wanting to be around you. It is hard to explain... You make me feel safe, a lot of the time. Without you, it's just me and my thoughts. And they are more dangerous for me than anything in this Tower."
THE SPYGLASS
you only strengthen its roots
