[SE] summer days drifting away

Maeve

Seren's skin was warm from the sun, pressing against hers as she drew Maeve into her gentle embrace and Maeve leaned into her heavily, not bothering to deny herself the comfort that Seren was so willingly offering her. She tucked her head beneath the starchild's chin, nuzzling into her and inhaling the salty sweet scent that seemed to cling to the other woman's skin. "We are friends... It's just-" Her words cut off, caught in the tightness of her throat, "It's just not the same as it was and it won't ever be. He said he doesn't think the same things about me that Nate does. I believe him, but... It's just a lot." Maeve doesn't know that she's making any sense. It's hard to put words to the feeling swirling in her chest. To the ache she still feels.

"It was fun before this and it would have still been fun if I hadn't fallen in love with someone who wouldn't ever want me. You weren't wrong when you said that it could hurt before." She murmured, not bothering to pull away from her embrace. She didn't want to. Not when it was so comforting and warm. Not when she felt safe and able to break in her arms. "It's part of why I'm trying so hard with Locke... He wants me. All of me. He doesn't have anyone else he wants to pick. I'm his first choice and he- he doesn't even know that I had those feelings for Sunjata. Not how deep they went." She should tell him everything, but the fear of losing him too outweighs the guilt. Perhaps she's too selfish of a person, clinging to the one thing she has to cling to.

Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere
Nothin' scares me anymore
Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness