go by feel

This scar I can't reverse, when the more it heals the worse it hurts

It should make him laugh, but Remi's smile is tight and humourless as he nods. Even after having re-pledged everything he was and wanted to Ronin, there are parts of him that are still healing from the fallout between he and Isla. Parts of him that wishes to have savoured what there was when it was still in his grasp. 'I already know I ought to shove you away.' Perhaps Isla's relationship with Varus was better timed than either of them knew.

"I am being serious. I have done nothing against the ascended or the Hollowed Ground ever." Bristling slightly, Remi tilts his head. Perhaps it was just his ego or testosterone, but the fact that his openness and honesty was being met with resistenance, only made him want to push back all the more. "Taking you away from those who need you here?" He frowns doubtfully, only just managing to keep himself from saying, How are they going to stop me?

"Why are you defending him?" Remi wonders, realizing that not for the first time, Isla was jumping to Nate's defence. "He and Hotaru are not together. This happened long after they parted, so what possible reason could he have to mention it all to you?"

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