know it all

"We aren't the sort of men who could live such simple lives. Not any more," he whispers, the words feeling traitorous on his tongue. Partially it's because of what they have been called to do, yes, and that is something that has previously escaped Ronin - not any longer, granted. But the family, the children? That wasn't what Remi wanted. And knowing that and knowing the reality that faces them when they next open their eyes has the long grass growing thorns, has the clear, starry skies beginning to darken with stormclouds. "It is alright," he says, trying to shape his tangled thoughts into something that makes sense. "I was happy with the family we had made, until you made one with someone else. And I know," he tells the alchemist quickly, before either thoughts or words can jump in. "I know it's different, and it's not what you meant to happen. And it's stupid to be so jealous, but I am. I am jealous that you are having another child, and that it isn't with me. That I am forever going to have to share you with a branch of your life that I can't touch." Scoffing out something that might be a laugh, he shakes his head to Remi. "The life," he says, though he doesn't think it needs saying. "If it was her, I wouldn't be here to tell you all of this." No lies, even if it hurts to hear. Because it's true - Safrin had been anything but coy or subtle, and if Ronin's heart didn't so completely belong to Remi, he'd have been sucked right in. RONIN if there's one thing i'm good at, it's surviving