my held breath fills the room with blood
hurting in ways I can't describe
She is not the only one to have not changed her stance.
“Of course I am torn. Where I came from, our Gods never judged us based on our forms. Here? She has never answered me. Nobody but Frey ever gave me a chance as an Abandoned. Do you know how hard it is to keep your faith in light of such silence?” Shaking her head she frowns heavily. “Your judgment doesn’t change who I am Seren. Safrin curses those who displease and offend her at shrines. Is that not the same as an eye for an eye? Not everyone in this world can afford to be kind and forgiving.” Soldiers in coming wars especially.
“I didn’t want Sunjata to be beholden. I didn’t want him torn between his allegiance to her, and a child with an Ascended. I never rejected Kamaria - I left, but I never held any ill will for her. And I don’t regret stabbing Sunjata. Not when he offered it long ago. Not when it’s a language we both speak. I know that is a point of contention - perhaps she will not forgive me, because I damn Sunjata the way I do. But that is something I have to accept, if that is to be the way things are. My anger is only for him, even if that implies I believe she has bad taste in men.” The shrug of her shoulders would otherwise seem humorous were it not for the severity of the topic.
“You can love someone and disagree with their actions. Just as you disagree with my choice to hurt those who hurt me once they’ve crossed a certain line. Just as Remi threatens Nate’s life to ensure the safety of others. Not everyone takes the high ground.” Seren is surrounded by family that would do the same. Hotaru wonders how she will feel when she realizes that.
“I would never kill Morgan. She has done a wonderful job, allegiances aside. But she cannot be persuaded to change her views, and that puts an entire land of people in danger. My allegiance is to those people, and to the Old Gods. My feelings for one woman can’t overshadow that.” They had once had many Ascended citizens, but now their numbers have dwindled to hardly anything at all. “Deimos does not want to lead. Not after we ruled together. He wants me to instead, yes.” And from there she outlines the general plan they have, sketched moments before she went to Torchline to face Sunjata and Nate.
“Of course I am torn. Where I came from, our Gods never judged us based on our forms. Here? She has never answered me. Nobody but Frey ever gave me a chance as an Abandoned. Do you know how hard it is to keep your faith in light of such silence?” Shaking her head she frowns heavily. “Your judgment doesn’t change who I am Seren. Safrin curses those who displease and offend her at shrines. Is that not the same as an eye for an eye? Not everyone in this world can afford to be kind and forgiving.” Soldiers in coming wars especially.
“I didn’t want Sunjata to be beholden. I didn’t want him torn between his allegiance to her, and a child with an Ascended. I never rejected Kamaria - I left, but I never held any ill will for her. And I don’t regret stabbing Sunjata. Not when he offered it long ago. Not when it’s a language we both speak. I know that is a point of contention - perhaps she will not forgive me, because I damn Sunjata the way I do. But that is something I have to accept, if that is to be the way things are. My anger is only for him, even if that implies I believe she has bad taste in men.” The shrug of her shoulders would otherwise seem humorous were it not for the severity of the topic.
“You can love someone and disagree with their actions. Just as you disagree with my choice to hurt those who hurt me once they’ve crossed a certain line. Just as Remi threatens Nate’s life to ensure the safety of others. Not everyone takes the high ground.” Seren is surrounded by family that would do the same. Hotaru wonders how she will feel when she realizes that.
“I would never kill Morgan. She has done a wonderful job, allegiances aside. But she cannot be persuaded to change her views, and that puts an entire land of people in danger. My allegiance is to those people, and to the Old Gods. My feelings for one woman can’t overshadow that.” They had once had many Ascended citizens, but now their numbers have dwindled to hardly anything at all. “Deimos does not want to lead. Not after we ruled together. He wants me to instead, yes.” And from there she outlines the general plan they have, sketched moments before she went to Torchline to face Sunjata and Nate.
my heart bends and breaks
so many, many times
HOTARU
