you are not a grave for people to bury their pain inside
never to be remembered again
never to be remembered again
She smiles gently at him, listening just as attentively in return, watching the feather dance across Flora’s skin and the ripples of flexing tiny fingers it causes. She moves her finger to press the tip into the tiny cup of the girl’s palm, feeling how she clings and releases as the feather tickles across her knuckles. “Oh, he had words about my involvement. But he can’t be blamed for the way I had to escape - he stayed to ensure everyone was safe.” Of which she is unspeakably grateful. That Noah lived, and free at that. “Though Morgan had his unwavering allegiance until she sided so heavily with the Voice. I don’t disagree that the rest is untrustworthy - to you.”
Shifting her legs so they wouldn’t go numb beneath the weight of the babes in her lap, Hotaru turns to gaze into the fire. “That violence and dedication is why I trust him. To know he would do so much on my behalf, because he cares for me - just as I involved myself in the coup because it would get him back in Safrin’s graces. To atone for the damage caused by his involvement in the fire I started.” And she knows that now, Remi is the only other person to know exactly why she’d overthrown Morgan. For Deimos. No other reason. Remi’s sea glass eyes shine as she turns back to look into them. “But it is centered around me. Around the few he loves. I am an exception to his normal reticence.” Just as he is hers. Otherwise, his control is enviable, it was what made him such a good General.
“I certainly won’t ask you to trust him yourself, or in your role as Guardian, if you are asking about capacity. But with my safety, and the twins? Of that I have no stronger faith. And perhaps that makes him unreliable or untrustworthy in other situations, but I’m not asking you to trust him in those.” In fact she wouldn’t be surprised if Deimos felt precisely the same. It is nice to be able to speak so frankly and with such composure with Remi, to air their grievances and concerns even with sleeping newborns between them. “With the twins in mind, I don’t want to be involved in the dangers I might have once embraced. Not until they are older, if at all. I know since he has been roused to action because of me that I am part of the equation. But all I want now is to raise our children.” Until the war calls upon her, if it does, she intends to keep her head down.
Shifting her legs so they wouldn’t go numb beneath the weight of the babes in her lap, Hotaru turns to gaze into the fire. “That violence and dedication is why I trust him. To know he would do so much on my behalf, because he cares for me - just as I involved myself in the coup because it would get him back in Safrin’s graces. To atone for the damage caused by his involvement in the fire I started.” And she knows that now, Remi is the only other person to know exactly why she’d overthrown Morgan. For Deimos. No other reason. Remi’s sea glass eyes shine as she turns back to look into them. “But it is centered around me. Around the few he loves. I am an exception to his normal reticence.” Just as he is hers. Otherwise, his control is enviable, it was what made him such a good General.
“I certainly won’t ask you to trust him yourself, or in your role as Guardian, if you are asking about capacity. But with my safety, and the twins? Of that I have no stronger faith. And perhaps that makes him unreliable or untrustworthy in other situations, but I’m not asking you to trust him in those.” In fact she wouldn’t be surprised if Deimos felt precisely the same. It is nice to be able to speak so frankly and with such composure with Remi, to air their grievances and concerns even with sleeping newborns between them. “With the twins in mind, I don’t want to be involved in the dangers I might have once embraced. Not until they are older, if at all. I know since he has been roused to action because of me that I am part of the equation. But all I want now is to raise our children.” Until the war calls upon her, if it does, she intends to keep her head down.
you are magic given physical form
Hotaru
