the things that I don't know

Noah

if there's a reason I'm still alive
when so many have died

Noah nodded, "I trust him with everything that I have, and I know his devotion to Safrin is strong and he is unwaveringly on the side of the old gods." Noah was glad that Finn did not outright dismiss Deimos for the magical blood that ran through his veins. "He is in King's End, though he may be making his way to Torchline now. I sent him a letter when I first arrived. We had been traveling together, when Vi brought me here." He explained, which really mean, I don't know exactly where he is at all.

Taking the letter from the Spyglass, Noah read it over thrice. Remi and Ronin had already gotten a relic, and Sunjata had helped them. Noah's jaw feathered some, knowing they could not trust Sunjata. He shared his life and his bed with an ascended (and a demigod, at that), which meant he could not stand with them, in Noah's opinion. Handing the letter back to Finn, Noah explained himself a little further. "I don't know what I can do, now that I am a demigod." Noah paused between his sentences for a moment, trying to think or feel if anything was different inside of him. There was something, but he couldn't quite place it. "But I would go, even if the only thing I can do is hold a map for them." Because he didn't know how strong he was, and the way that Doctor Hart spoke, he might not consider himself strong right now at all.

then I'm willing to
wait for it