always more to learn

the lullaby

You are colors in the sky after forty rains

Remi feels his own guilt mirrored back at him (or perhaps he and Ronin are simply feeling the same shade of sickly blue). Either way, it has the alchemist sighing and hunching his shoulders forward. "I don't know anymore." He admits with a dry laugh. "We are not even fighting a war. Not yet anyway. And somehow we have just..." The fingers not curled in his husbands hair splay out, as if there was sand blowing through his fingers. "Gods, he..." Feeling a sudden lump in his throat, Remi clenches his jaw and gives his head a small shake. ..he said if he were older, he could help. He finishes silently, biting back tears.

Snuffling in a breath through his nose, Remi tries to clear his throat. "He is in Stormbreak, packing. He..wants to go and see Ever. Apparently they have only exchanged a few letters...we have not taken him, and perhaps not so surprisingly, without any skyships, Ever has not seen Mateo either." Wanting to poke his own eyes out as if that might somehow count as penance, Remi slumps even more bonelessly against Ronin.

'I always thought...' As soon as the thought was formed in his mind, tears began to bite at the back of Remi's eyes. ..with Aoife...Gods Ronin, I thought we were good parents. The bleak and sinking wintery chill that accompanied his emotions said more than his weary words (or thoughts) ever could.

Storm or drought, Surrounded by fire or flood
With You I'm never without

Code blatently stolen from queen of codes, Sky!