see what you find there with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair
It doesn't help. He fumbles and fumbles and fumbles. There is a threat of tears for a moment and that makes her all the more upset. Only little girls cried and she wasn't a little girl. Her momma had just talked to her about it. How she was becoming a woman. How she was growing up. Yet she didn't feel grown up. Not when Enzo was standing there, towering over her and sporting new muscle, a deeper voice that showed his new age. The child of a demigod, aged up fresh and ready for war, standing in front of her like it didn't mean anything.
Wiping roughly at her eyes, shrugging her shoulders even as Enzo gives it a squeeze, feeling a tightness in her throat and an unwillingness to admit that he might be right. "Except I am missing out, aren't I? It's not like I can do anything to help and once it all starts people won't have time for fun." They wouldn't have time for her. She shakes her head, drawing in a sharp breath in an attempt to control the rioting emotions swirling inside of her. Remember what Pihu said. Just build a wall.
So she does. Up and up and up. Brick after brick. Until it's all trapped inside, unable to leak out or get through the cracks, buried deep inside. The hollowness that follows is more comforting than the hand on her shoulder.
Wiping roughly at her eyes, shrugging her shoulders even as Enzo gives it a squeeze, feeling a tightness in her throat and an unwillingness to admit that he might be right. "Except I am missing out, aren't I? It's not like I can do anything to help and once it all starts people won't have time for fun." They wouldn't have time for her. She shakes her head, drawing in a sharp breath in an attempt to control the rioting emotions swirling inside of her. Remember what Pihu said. Just build a wall.
So she does. Up and up and up. Brick after brick. Until it's all trapped inside, unable to leak out or get through the cracks, buried deep inside. The hollowness that follows is more comforting than the hand on her shoulder.
Paige
