All That Glitters

Remi felt a crashing wave of guilt fall over him as he saw the hurt and upset in Sam's eyes. Swallowing, Remi looked up towards the sky holding his breath for a moment and trying to wade through all that he was feeling. "No I am sorry. I just...I..." But of course the words wouldn't come. It wouldn't make sense to tell someone that he'd apparently slept with many times, that the intimacy was too much, that it was so much more than he ever thought he'd be able to experience and that, stupid as it might have sounded, he wanted it to be special. Sam had suggested it himself, that he could just make new memories. And something about experiencing what he was, out in the open like this with Sam quite literally at an arms length away, felt wrong. But there was Sam's safety to think about, and that pulled painfully at the pit of his stomach, forcing the alchemist's eyes back down. "I want you to be safe." Remi argued, a bit sadly as his eyes once again struggled to find Sam's. Яemi But now it's happily ever never. I guess now I know better