[God Quest] The Rice Dance

phoebe Can anybody find me somebody to love Phoebe’s cheeks flushed a little at Frey’s comment – her bashfulness more a personal trait than one imbedded in inexperience. It was a little odd to think Frey considered that a present, or even knew about it…yet at the same time not. They were a deity and such things were in their preferred wheelhouse. Regardless, she was glad Frey was not offended at her not having brought a tangible gift and pleased with what they did consider the gift to be. She waited quietly as Frey seemed to contemplate, not moving or tensing as they took up a piece of her hair. Really, this interaction was such a complete difference from the times before. She actually felt at ease in Frey’s presence, able to enjoy the warmth they inspired without it fighting against her internal, mental roadblocks. A real page turner… Phoebe glanced over at Emmett, who looked caught between awe, confusion…and painfully obvious desire. She smiled a little at him in a comforting manner. Seeing one of the deities for the first time, experiencing their power, was indeed a lot to take in – and Frey definitely know how to leave an impression. Wide brown eyes looked back at Frey, considering their question. What had she learned? Lots of things! The process had been arduous – mentally and emotionally, not particularly physically. She had had to come to terms with who she was and what she wanted. She had to put herself out there – when really she would rather go unnoticed due to shyness. She had had to discern who really was her match, who could meet her where she was, and who was playing games. She had learned that attraction was more than physical but personality as well. She was struggling to put into words all of it and worried her lip as she thought. So she decided to think back to her conversation with Frey that led to this endeavor in the first place and the insecurities Frey had told her she was wrong about; that was a good place to start to formulate her answer. "I...learned that I was being silly for being so worried about sex and intimacy...that with the right person its wonderful. It doesn't take away from me but makes me more...whole. More fully myself. And...that I am wantable. I just...shouldn't wait around to be noticed but look for it myself. I don't think I would have been brave enough to talk to Emmett if I hadn't put myself out there like you said I needed to." she said, giving Emmett a small smile.