Aurelia
How come silence is so loud in the shadows?
I wanna scream 'til it's on
I wanna scream 'til it's on
Aurelia's brows lift when Sah explains his point of view, not having expected him to actually have a conversation about it. Rather than continuously point fingers and blame and insults or what-have-you, he actually wants to talk it out. Aurelia's at a loss for words for a moment, except for what little else she says about mercy, to which he has his own response for as well. A response that also surprises her.
"I've never been apart of a war..." she tells him, "at least, not the typical kind. War isn't always fought in glorious battles on wide open fields, between two kingdoms. Sometimes it's done from the shadows, out of plain view. Sometimes it's just pure chaos, with no clear lines as to who is right or wrong. Though, I guess you might already know that," she glances down, before lifting her gaze back up again, "I've spent my entire life fighting. I will never claim to be a good person, because I know that I'm not. But that... does not mean I don't feel regret. Or that I don't want to be better." Not that it makes much difference. "I wish things could have ended up differently that night, with the Slagveld and Hotaru's companion. But if I were to be able to go back, I'm not sure that I'd have done anything differently... That would require... going all the way back." To the very beginning. And even then, things would have to change for more than just her.
"You can lose a part of your soul to many things. Life, love, loss... it all leaves its marks, and none of us are unscathed. I don't pity people for that, and I certainly won't make exceptions for it, and you shouldn't either. That is what it means to have a soul... that you will lose parts of it to the things you love. There is no avoiding that, unless you close yourself off completely." These words are spoken despondently, as if she knows from personal experience and - if her words are any indication - she does.
"I've never been apart of a war..." she tells him, "at least, not the typical kind. War isn't always fought in glorious battles on wide open fields, between two kingdoms. Sometimes it's done from the shadows, out of plain view. Sometimes it's just pure chaos, with no clear lines as to who is right or wrong. Though, I guess you might already know that," she glances down, before lifting her gaze back up again, "I've spent my entire life fighting. I will never claim to be a good person, because I know that I'm not. But that... does not mean I don't feel regret. Or that I don't want to be better." Not that it makes much difference. "I wish things could have ended up differently that night, with the Slagveld and Hotaru's companion. But if I were to be able to go back, I'm not sure that I'd have done anything differently... That would require... going all the way back." To the very beginning. And even then, things would have to change for more than just her.
"You can lose a part of your soul to many things. Life, love, loss... it all leaves its marks, and none of us are unscathed. I don't pity people for that, and I certainly won't make exceptions for it, and you shouldn't either. That is what it means to have a soul... that you will lose parts of it to the things you love. There is no avoiding that, unless you close yourself off completely." These words are spoken despondently, as if she knows from personal experience and - if her words are any indication - she does.
Tell my feet they should run
but they don't follow
but they don't follow
