Jude
and I'm sick of waiting patiently
Even the small gesture of Noe following him to the floor feels monumental. It feels...nice to have her admit that she doesn't know what to do either because it makes him feel like a lot less of a fuck-up. Like maybe this is something other people his age go through and it's not a product of his own stupidity. Except what just happened feels a lot more like cruelty than stupidity, and Jude hates himself for that.
He chokes out a pitiful laugh at the idea of a petting zoo. He only knows the hels and the chickens that wander around the markets; neither seems particularly invigorating to pet. "I don't think so," he trails off, scrambling to think of what else makes him feel better that didn't just run off down his hallway in tears. "There's a place my parents used to take me...a secret cavern you can swim inside. Do you...um...wanna go?" Clearly shy given he's never taken anyone outside of the family there, Jude trusts wholeheartedly (naively) that Noe won't get the wrong idea about the rarity of the offer. He just wants to lay in the silt and shallows and stare up at the star-like sediments in the cavern ceiling and forget everything else.
He chokes out a pitiful laugh at the idea of a petting zoo. He only knows the hels and the chickens that wander around the markets; neither seems particularly invigorating to pet. "I don't think so," he trails off, scrambling to think of what else makes him feel better that didn't just run off down his hallway in tears. "There's a place my parents used to take me...a secret cavern you can swim inside. Do you...um...wanna go?" Clearly shy given he's never taken anyone outside of the family there, Jude trusts wholeheartedly (naively) that Noe won't get the wrong idea about the rarity of the offer. He just wants to lay in the silt and shallows and stare up at the star-like sediments in the cavern ceiling and forget everything else.
for someone that won't ever arrive
