no grave can hold my body down
"Yes it does," Ronin blurts quickly. He'd been up there with her once. They'd watched their friends and loved ones, and he knows. And for every I don't know, spoken or not, a thousand more whys rise up in the back of his throat. Why would Safrin do this to him? To Vanya? Why would she lie? Why make a promise she couldn't keep? Had she even tried?
Wiping his hands roughly off on his pants, as if needing the sensation of something real, Ronin shudders in another breath and breaks on the exhale. "This is all my fault," he chokes. It might not be true - and deep down the Nova knows it isn't - but the guilt is worse than the blame, and gods if he'd only been wiser, smarter, if he'd only checked. He'd spoken to Mort - he could have asked, why didn't he ask--
Cold fingers brush against his wrist, Ronin flinching automatically before all but melting towards Remi. He's a black hole of shock wherever they touch; emotions bite and fling themselves against the wall of inertia that stops any one of them from taking hold, and the Nova is quietly thankful that they're here, having a very bad dream, rather than being awake. "Mateo is okay?" he says suddenly, eyebrows flinching together as he snatches at yet another scrap of information cleaved through Remi's revelation.
Wiping his hands roughly off on his pants, as if needing the sensation of something real, Ronin shudders in another breath and breaks on the exhale. "This is all my fault," he chokes. It might not be true - and deep down the Nova knows it isn't - but the guilt is worse than the blame, and gods if he'd only been wiser, smarter, if he'd only checked. He'd spoken to Mort - he could have asked, why didn't he ask--
Cold fingers brush against his wrist, Ronin flinching automatically before all but melting towards Remi. He's a black hole of shock wherever they touch; emotions bite and fling themselves against the wall of inertia that stops any one of them from taking hold, and the Nova is quietly thankful that they're here, having a very bad dream, rather than being awake. "Mateo is okay?" he says suddenly, eyebrows flinching together as he snatches at yet another scrap of information cleaved through Remi's revelation.
