[se] wish i didn't know

Koa

I don't want to wonder if this is a blunder

"Yeah, well." Koa shrugs, letting himself begin to feel the tiniest bit of hope. She hasn't kicked him out yet, hasn't laughed in his face, so maybe, maybe this talking thing isn't as bad a plan as he feared. He bats back at her extended hand, playfully pushing it out of his face - a face which briefly looks more puppyish, an affectation he puts on with his usual charming ease. Koa doesn't grab her fingers, though he wants to; but he does leave his own resting on the couch. An offering, should she want to take it.

This is about what she wants, after all.

"After y'know, I fucked up the first time--" He pauses, allowing her a chance to quip back on that a monumental fuckup it was, "--I figured I blew any chance you'd ever want anything to do with me. So when we started hanging out... I dunno, it seemed so delicate, and I think I was so scared to break something again that I didn't let myself look or think too hard. I was scared that if I did, I'd realize that I wanted..."

The potential ending hangs in the balance, a thousand options and only one. More. Love. Sunlight. Romance. To cause your smile. To hold you in public. To bring you flowers. To call you mine. To see you. To hold you. To kiss you. To love you. You. You.

"You."

When I kiss your lips I want to sink down to the bottom of the sea

Code blatently stolen from queen of codes, Sky!