you've long seen your downfall, spelled out in another's bones
"You sound as though you want me to hate you," Ronin points out quietly, raising his eyebrows and glancing, albeit fleetingly, at his husband's face. Because whether it's a noble lie or not, hating himself is still more easily done than feeling that emotion towards Remi - and it's one he thought the other man would have preferred as well, honestly. Besides which, it isn't as though they are still in the Greatwood - not as though they could be there even if they wanted to.
"Will it be enough if I were ambivalent towards her?" he wonders with a furrowed brow, tilting his head. "Or will I have to force myself to like her before this can be put to bed?" He's being spiteful now and he knows it, Ronin clenching and unclenching his hands before raking them back through his dark hair. "Sorry," he mumbles. "That was uncalled for."
Letting his shoulders slump, Ronin shrugs at last. "The decisions you made were the correct ones," he says softly. "For you. For your children. But they hurt me - deeply - and they turned me into somebody I never thought I would be. And I'm still not okay, when I think back on it." Whether or not it's what Remi wants to hear, at least it's honest.
"Will it be enough if I were ambivalent towards her?" he wonders with a furrowed brow, tilting his head. "Or will I have to force myself to like her before this can be put to bed?" He's being spiteful now and he knows it, Ronin clenching and unclenching his hands before raking them back through his dark hair. "Sorry," he mumbles. "That was uncalled for."
Letting his shoulders slump, Ronin shrugs at last. "The decisions you made were the correct ones," he says softly. "For you. For your children. But they hurt me - deeply - and they turned me into somebody I never thought I would be. And I'm still not okay, when I think back on it." Whether or not it's what Remi wants to hear, at least it's honest.
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