[SE] the feel of coldness only water brings

REMI

the alchemist

& my heart ran away with me

"I only want you to put your feelings where they belong." Remi says with a shake of his head before the ghost of a smile tugs at one corner of his mouth. "It's far too easy for you to hate yourself in secret. At least if you hate me it isn't the sort of thing that would go on for years." It's both true and cheeky at the same time, and the prickle of amusement Remi feels is enough to have his tears flowing anew.

Not commenting on Ronin's jab, the Bastion sits quietly, rolling a few grains of sand between his fingertips before nodding ambivalently.

"Do you think you would have felt any better had it gone your way?" Remi wonders quietly, not in an effort to argue, but to genuinely tease out the truth that they'd both so long ignored. "If I had sent her away, imagining for a moment there was somewhere safe for her to have gone, what then? Should I have given up my leadership of the Greatwood owing to how often I'd have to be away? Or just...ignored them altogether for a while?" Though Remi was fairly certain his husband did in fact want the first suggestion, would having Remi sneak away to spend time with his children and their mother for days at a time really have made the Knight feel better, aside from the initial burst of satisfaction it might have offered?

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