Maea
You think killing is hard?
Try healing something. That is hard.
Try healing something. That is hard.
It wasn't like she tried to be contrary. If she misunderstood him, it was because she genuinely didn't follow his line of thought. Dragging down a harsh breath of air, Maea pushed against the frustration and stilled herself, really tried to focus and listen – only to end up confused again.
"I remember that, yes," she said, raking her nails against the scalp - somehow it helped her think clearer. "I also remember you mocking me for needing help to get out of that line of thought." Their argument outside the house they'd never bought still echoed in the back of her mind, fainter over the years but not gone. "Now it sounds to me like I was right to be worried. I - I'm sorry, Jata, but I really don't get it. To me it feels like one massive contradiction. Like - I'm to consider other people's wishes, but not too much because then I'm letting it dictate my life, and I should listen to others thoughts but I should also make my own decisions, and that's - I don't understand how anyone gets anything done. No matter what I do, it's wrong."
Bewildered she spread her arms wide - flinching slightly to find them dry, having failed to notice when he had pulled the water from the sleeves. "At the meeting... I really did think it was the consensus that she wasn't welcome, you know? Nothing anyone had said up until then had indicated anything else. And I've never seen leaders balk in the face of a threat either. I realize I was mistaken, but... can you at least see why I acted the way I did? Based on everything I've had as an example up to that point?" Or was she really as insane as he'd made her sound like?
"I remember that, yes," she said, raking her nails against the scalp - somehow it helped her think clearer. "I also remember you mocking me for needing help to get out of that line of thought." Their argument outside the house they'd never bought still echoed in the back of her mind, fainter over the years but not gone. "Now it sounds to me like I was right to be worried. I - I'm sorry, Jata, but I really don't get it. To me it feels like one massive contradiction. Like - I'm to consider other people's wishes, but not too much because then I'm letting it dictate my life, and I should listen to others thoughts but I should also make my own decisions, and that's - I don't understand how anyone gets anything done. No matter what I do, it's wrong."
Bewildered she spread her arms wide - flinching slightly to find them dry, having failed to notice when he had pulled the water from the sleeves. "At the meeting... I really did think it was the consensus that she wasn't welcome, you know? Nothing anyone had said up until then had indicated anything else. And I've never seen leaders balk in the face of a threat either. I realize I was mistaken, but... can you at least see why I acted the way I did? Based on everything I've had as an example up to that point?" Or was she really as insane as he'd made her sound like?
You can break something in two seconds
But it can take forever to fix it
But it can take forever to fix it
