MAEA
Pain flared up inside, and in her lap the pale fingers closed in tight fists around her skirt, as if by holding on to something she could avoid falling to pieces. Maea hadn't expected anything, true, but the distance she perceived in Ludo's response still hurt. The familiar 'sweetling' didn't ring the way it used to, and she had to wonder whether she had always misunderstood her relation to this deity... or if it was simply a result of her choices up to this point.
"... I guess... I hoped you might know how to fix me," she said miserably. "You knew me in the past, and... you liked that person well enough to attune her. Dygra doesn't care about anything that happened before I became ancient, I don't think... but I hoped that you would." Rubbing and pressing the meat of her palm while swallowing back feelings of hurt and despair, her shrug was a forlorn thing, all strength drained away by her state of mind.
"Is there a way to start over completely from scratch? What's the closest thing you can come to death, without actually dying? Maybe... that is what I really want. To figure out who I am now without carrying who I used to be. Is that... possible?"
Was it the easy way out? Was she running away again? At the very least, she couldn't think of a better solution, since everything she was doing now only resulted in hurting the people around her.
"... I guess... I hoped you might know how to fix me," she said miserably. "You knew me in the past, and... you liked that person well enough to attune her. Dygra doesn't care about anything that happened before I became ancient, I don't think... but I hoped that you would." Rubbing and pressing the meat of her palm while swallowing back feelings of hurt and despair, her shrug was a forlorn thing, all strength drained away by her state of mind.
"Is there a way to start over completely from scratch? What's the closest thing you can come to death, without actually dying? Maybe... that is what I really want. To figure out who I am now without carrying who I used to be. Is that... possible?"
Was it the easy way out? Was she running away again? At the very least, she couldn't think of a better solution, since everything she was doing now only resulted in hurting the people around her.
Nothing lasts forever
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