So here's to everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
She didn’t mean to leave him, or to leave Stormbreak – except she did, didn’t she? When she had fled her home and left it in the hands of the Family, she had abandoned the people she had sworn to represent and protect. And somewhere in the back of her panicked mind, she had known what that meant, had known what the consequences would be, and she had done it anyway.
She’d never been good enough to be Stormbreak’s Heart. She’d never been good enough to capture a part of Koa’s.
She could feel reason slipping away as she descended into a vicious sense of self-loathing that had her wrapping her arms around her middle, as though that could help her hold it together just a little bit longer. Koa deserved better than her. Stormbreak deserved better than her. Maybe this was what had to happen to show her that she was just a stupid, naïve, incapable girl who would never be able to do anything right. Maybe they were all better off without her.
”Are you infected, Soh?”
A breath passed as she absorbed the question, her brow creasing with a confused frown. Then pure fear took over as she realized she’d never thought of the potential lingering effects of her illness. Infected? She couldn’t be, could she? But would she even know? She swallowed hard, swaying in place as the implications washed over her. Pale and lightheaded, she found that she suddenly couldn’t even focus on Koa’s face, so intense was her panic.
But her silence was damning, wasn’t it? She had to say something, anything to convince him that she was her, no matter how useless and fucked up and worthless she turned out to be. Even that had to be better than being infected. ”I – don’t think –” She couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe. She couldn’t be infected. Except… she could. ”I don’t know. How would I know?”
She’d never been good enough to be Stormbreak’s Heart. She’d never been good enough to capture a part of Koa’s.
She could feel reason slipping away as she descended into a vicious sense of self-loathing that had her wrapping her arms around her middle, as though that could help her hold it together just a little bit longer. Koa deserved better than her. Stormbreak deserved better than her. Maybe this was what had to happen to show her that she was just a stupid, naïve, incapable girl who would never be able to do anything right. Maybe they were all better off without her.
”Are you infected, Soh?”
A breath passed as she absorbed the question, her brow creasing with a confused frown. Then pure fear took over as she realized she’d never thought of the potential lingering effects of her illness. Infected? She couldn’t be, could she? But would she even know? She swallowed hard, swaying in place as the implications washed over her. Pale and lightheaded, she found that she suddenly couldn’t even focus on Koa’s face, so intense was her panic.
But her silence was damning, wasn’t it? She had to say something, anything to convince him that she was her, no matter how useless and fucked up and worthless she turned out to be. Even that had to be better than being infected. ”I – don’t think –” She couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe. She couldn’t be infected. Except… she could. ”I don’t know. How would I know?”
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore
Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore
Sohalia
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
