flora
"I wouldn't worry about it. You've got an eternity to figure out how to get breaking hearts down to a science." The words are out before Flora has even realized she's said anything, and while her thoughts vaguely gesture toward an apology, she's bitten her lower lip between her teeth.
"You are, though." The queen counters, swallowing as she hazards a glance up at Jack, before letting her gaze fall somewhere down the beach. "I..." Pausing before the words tumble out, even though they've been dancing around it this entire conversation, Flora hasn't forgotten the way that the word love had felt like a weapon tossed out between them, just waiting to see who'd pick it up and strike the first blow. Wrapping an arm around herself, she continues, pointedly not looking at Jack as she does. "I fell in love with you knowing that you'd never feel it back, knowing that any realistic future I could see with you would be bleak and probably unsatisfying for both of us, and I loved you anyway." Because that's how it worked, Jack. It wasn't contingent on well if you want this, or what would you say if I..
Eyeing the fuzzy lights of Haulani, Flora sighs. "I've never let myself think of a future because I knew it wasn't what you wanted." She murmurs, only vaguely aware of the way his fingers are stretching for her. "And now you suddenly want me to, after you've just said that actually you've been pushing me away from the start?" Wanting to swat his fingers away for the ultimatum they posed but knowing what his touch would do to her, Flora just lifts her eyes from his outstretched hand up to his face. "I think it's you who needs to think about what he wants. What a life with someone like me would be like, and how you actually feel when you aren't hiding behind hypotheticals."
"You are, though." The queen counters, swallowing as she hazards a glance up at Jack, before letting her gaze fall somewhere down the beach. "I..." Pausing before the words tumble out, even though they've been dancing around it this entire conversation, Flora hasn't forgotten the way that the word love had felt like a weapon tossed out between them, just waiting to see who'd pick it up and strike the first blow. Wrapping an arm around herself, she continues, pointedly not looking at Jack as she does. "I fell in love with you knowing that you'd never feel it back, knowing that any realistic future I could see with you would be bleak and probably unsatisfying for both of us, and I loved you anyway." Because that's how it worked, Jack. It wasn't contingent on well if you want this, or what would you say if I..
Eyeing the fuzzy lights of Haulani, Flora sighs. "I've never let myself think of a future because I knew it wasn't what you wanted." She murmurs, only vaguely aware of the way his fingers are stretching for her. "And now you suddenly want me to, after you've just said that actually you've been pushing me away from the start?" Wanting to swat his fingers away for the ultimatum they posed but knowing what his touch would do to her, Flora just lifts her eyes from his outstretched hand up to his face. "I think it's you who needs to think about what he wants. What a life with someone like me would be like, and how you actually feel when you aren't hiding behind hypotheticals."
How can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22?
Will you still want me when I'm nothing new?
Will you still want me when I'm nothing new?
