are you still the same soul

And I feel like my castle's crumbling down
And I watch all my bridges burn to the ground

Life, Soh had decided, was hard. She used to be a glass-half-full kind of person, the kind of person who could see the good in any person or situation. And maybe deep down she still was, but right now... right now, everything felt dark, and dim, and sad. And she couldn't see a way out. Someone had once told her that when things looked bleak, sometimes the only thing to do was the next right thing. But no one had ever told her what to do when she didn't know what that was.

But since life was hard, and she was lost, and the only thing she knew she wanted was to go back to when things were easy, Jude's appearance didn't do what it might once have done. Oh, sure, she looked up with surprise at the sound of his voice, so much emotion carried on the sound of her name - but she didn't feel guilt, or dread, or anger. No - what she felt, more than anything else, was relief.

"Jude!" she cried, his name a gasp that held all of the things she wished to say. And for a moment, it was almost like being back in the time before. Even when she remembered that he hated her, she couldn't bring herself to shy away. He looked so relieved to see her, and she couldn't find it in herself to go backwards. Maybe they could find a way forward - together, as they had always been meant to be. Even after everything, she loved him fiercely, and she would never turn away from him. Never. So she opened her own arms and reached right back, tears welling in her own eyes as she offered up an embrace that said everything she couldn't. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

And you don't want to know me, I will just let you down
You don't wanna know me now

Sohalia