[SE] have you ever had a feeling that's dumb?

Sing to me, I am not doing well
Getting tired of my own words

Continuing to fill bowls with piping hot stew and passing it out to eager and grateful hands, she continued until the line dispersed, and finally made herself a meal. Hunching down with her back to the fire to savor the warmth, stirring the stew with the bread while contemplating what to say. Losing ones companion... it was a wound unlike any other. She knew it all too well, for her own soul had yet to heal from loss.

"I am sorry," she murmured eventually, a haunted knowing in her eyes. "I had a companion too, once. Just a wisp that took a liking to me... It passed away a long time ago, but it feels like yesterday." It had taken laughter with it, and love, joy, all the brightness of her soul. Only shadow and doubt remained, and an abiding, cold loneliness where once there had been another consciousness.
She tried not to dwell on it, of course, but it was about as effective as an amputee not thinking about a missing limb.

"I've been... alright, I suppose. A bit aimless. I'm out of ideas on what to do with myself, or where to put down my roots. In the meantime I've been wandering." Avoiding people she knew, though Maea didn't admit as much out loud.

Sing to me, cause I can't hear myself
through the loudness of my own hurts

base inspired by Odd <3