Sing to me, I am not doing well
Getting tired of my own words
Pulling her knees up against the chest, Maea wrapped her arms around them as the watched the fire dance. The flickering light and the soft snap and crack of smoldering embers soothed some of her anxiety, though the way her heart slammed against the ribcage it was a wonder Hadama didn't hear it. Was it really a comfort to know that even some merfolk had sharp teeth and odd appetites? It didn't offer her any escape. Only suggested what she already knew, which was that she didn't have a choice but to get over it. Getting tired of my own words
"Are they accepted, those sharks and orcas?" Picking at a spot on her skirt, Maea couldn't quite bring herself to look at the Tidebreaker. "Do your people trust them? Even though they could turn on those around them? Lose control..? The cannibals in Halo were not. I think one of the Wardens exterminated most of them..." Had it been Neron, or Morgan? She couldn't remember the details.
A pair of finely made sticks appeared in her field of vision. Looking up, Maea gazed between the utensils and Hadama, hesitantly accepting them from his hand. She struggled to hold them like he had, despite the way they twisted in her grasp. "This is a lot harder than it looks..." With deep concentration she tried to pick up a slice of the meat, fumbling and dropping it several times before a sort of almost functional grip was achieved. "Now what? I just dip it?"
It was a nice thought, to direct any impulses towards a good cause. It still meant giving in to them, though. "I don't know... Maybe? But what if... if I get so used to blood and death that I stop caring about doing good? Already this thing in my head doesn't make a difference between people and prey. I'm afraid – afraid of what will happen the next time it takes over. I might really kill someone this time." It hadn't been bloodlust that made her hurt Thalassa, but the event blended into her pre-existing worries, tangling concerns into a hopeless mess. "I just don't trust myself anymore. Haven't for a long time."
Sing to me, cause I can't hear myself
through the loudness of my own hurts
through the loudness of my own hurts
base inspired by Odd <3
