KOA
"Ha!" Koa scoffs explosively, shaking his head at the idea. "You really think they care?" Its blasphemy, a part of him knows, but a larger, angrier part couldn't care less. Let Vi or Mort strike him down; at least it would be something.
But he doesn't have the energy to sustain indignation, falling quickly back into his shadow self. "Even if they would help, what's the point? Noe doesn't even want to be healed, and maybe..." His jawbone flutters beneath the skin; he swallows down the terrible taste of what he's about to say. "Maybe it's better she's this way. At least maybe she'll be safe, when everything goes to shit."
It's as much an admission of defeat as anything, but Koa is so tired of holding strong. Of trying to fix things when they all keep breaking. Finally looking up at Sohalia, he meets the silver of her gaze with a copper that has dulled. "How are we gonna fix anything, Soh? Even the demigods are scared of the Family. Zavien died, you almost--" he cuts off, swallowing and looking away. He doesn't cry, doesn't let himself, but there's anguish in his face.
"Maybe it's time to give up fighting. I'm so sick of seeing the people I care about get hurt."
But he doesn't have the energy to sustain indignation, falling quickly back into his shadow self. "Even if they would help, what's the point? Noe doesn't even want to be healed, and maybe..." His jawbone flutters beneath the skin; he swallows down the terrible taste of what he's about to say. "Maybe it's better she's this way. At least maybe she'll be safe, when everything goes to shit."
It's as much an admission of defeat as anything, but Koa is so tired of holding strong. Of trying to fix things when they all keep breaking. Finally looking up at Sohalia, he meets the silver of her gaze with a copper that has dulled. "How are we gonna fix anything, Soh? Even the demigods are scared of the Family. Zavien died, you almost--" he cuts off, swallowing and looking away. He doesn't cry, doesn't let himself, but there's anguish in his face.
"Maybe it's time to give up fighting. I'm so sick of seeing the people I care about get hurt."
Let me go, I don't wanna be your hero
I don't wanna be a big man
Just wanna fight with everyone else
I don't wanna be a big man
Just wanna fight with everyone else
Code stolen from Queen Sky
