// I tried to scream but my head was underwater //
What was there to tell, really? Maea pushed the remnants of the jelly around the plate, her appetite gone for now even though the memory of pleasant flavors lingered on her tongue.
"Well... as I said, my plan was to move here. But the queen didn't like that idea, so she is throwing me out. I was given a week to get necessary business sorted... and I can't come back unless it's with a Rose or Lily in hand." Not even to visit, she assumed, which effectively cut her off from meeting friends and finding work.
Without getting into the longwinded reasons for Flora's poor opinion of her, that was the gist. "I'd been thinking I wanted to change a lot of things... The way I've been doing things hasn't worked well, and I'm sick of hurting people without meaning to. I wanted more... more intention behind my choices. To not react so much with my gut whenever something happens, as it doesn't lead me to good places. But now... it looks like I need to take a detour." Not settle and find peace in steady work and personal growth, but go on a wild goosechase for flowers to prove herself to some angry little girl with a chip on her shoulder.
It was only the looming threat of the Family and the actual need for the plants that had her even considering this path. Only the fact that she didn't like any of the other options available to her that kept her from just walking away from the whole situation.
"Well... as I said, my plan was to move here. But the queen didn't like that idea, so she is throwing me out. I was given a week to get necessary business sorted... and I can't come back unless it's with a Rose or Lily in hand." Not even to visit, she assumed, which effectively cut her off from meeting friends and finding work.
Without getting into the longwinded reasons for Flora's poor opinion of her, that was the gist. "I'd been thinking I wanted to change a lot of things... The way I've been doing things hasn't worked well, and I'm sick of hurting people without meaning to. I wanted more... more intention behind my choices. To not react so much with my gut whenever something happens, as it doesn't lead me to good places. But now... it looks like I need to take a detour." Not settle and find peace in steady work and personal growth, but go on a wild goosechase for flowers to prove herself to some angry little girl with a chip on her shoulder.
It was only the looming threat of the Family and the actual need for the plants that had her even considering this path. Only the fact that she didn't like any of the other options available to her that kept her from just walking away from the whole situation.
Maea
// They called me weak, like I'm not just somebody's daughter //
