Sing to me, I am not doing well
Getting tired of my own words
If she needed help, she would have asked for it. If she wanted to be heard, she wouldn't have withdrawn to the deepest part of the forest and the widest part of a river before letting her emotions out. If he wanted help to figure his own shit out Zavien should have asked for it, but instead he popped up out of nowhere and started making claims on what she was feeling, butting in where he had no reason to be. Getting tired of my own words
"You were. Very mistaken. Try again when you bring a plan of action, or at least save your sympathies for someone who actually want them. I've had enough of kindness," Maea cut back, meeting his gaze head on. At least he was looking at her now, though the agony within those eyes did make her flinch. It had her wondering what she'd stepped on to cause such a reaction. Unease flipped in her gut. Too angry to really feel any shame, no doubt this was going to haunt her once her terrible temper settled.
The worst part was, it actually felt better to snap at someone. It did nothing to reinforce her new leaf as a 'good' and 'patient' person. Hell, she couldn't even manage 'kind'. It was almost like the tiger in her was bleeding through, like the crow had pecked and taunted the doe into fleeing; leaving only teeth and claws and dreadful things behind to respond with.
The man turned to leave, and she did nothing to stop him. Standing like a statue upon the tiny islet, she didn't move at all until both Zavien and his dragon were long gone. Only then did she hurl the rest of her fire at the uncaring river, and shifted into the white bird to retrieve her clothes while the steam slowly dispersed into the dreary light. Inside she kept seething, shifting and stirring to escape an ache that wouldn't let up.
Nothing really worked though, and it was with feelings of something left unresolved that she left, not even in the mood to make a mess anymore.
[FIN]
Sing to me, cause I can't hear myself
through the loudness of my own hurts
through the loudness of my own hurts
base inspired by Odd <3
