MAEA
"No, not really," Maea replied regarding the bed. "I just didn't get that far before I fell asleep. And maybe I don't really trust that this is real, yet... Like, if I get comfortable and suddenly have to uproot again, it would... hurt, I think. A lot."
Rubbing the back of her neck, left exposed and cold with her hair tied up, Maea pulled her legs up in the chair and worried at the hem of her trousers with a nail. "Honestly, I don't even know Flora. We've met all of three times, barely spoke during any of them, and yet she has a fully formed opinion on who I am and what I'm about. All she's seen is my mistakes, and it doesn't seem like she's got any interest in letting me make up for them. If she wasn't the queen it wouldn't be a problem, I don't need to be liked by her – but to live with that kind of disdain hanging over my head at all times...?" She shook her head. It just wasn't worth it.
"The thing is, though, that I really have done serious mistakes. If it had been a purely logical reasoning then I wouldn't even complain. I... as a diplomat I invited the leaders to a meeting, that was crashed by Dahlia. I stood up to her, asked her to leave as she hadn't been invited, but that put everyone in the room in danger. And thinking it would ease the tension, I left the room. Just.. walked out, while everyone else had to stay. And that's just the first fuckup - I completely understand if anyone would find that intolerable." Even speaking of it brought back the shocked numbness she'd been wrapped up in. That she had spoken at all, the lack of support from everyone but Hadama, the growing dread as the Reaper just smiled at her and all courage crumbled away...
Rubbing the back of her neck, left exposed and cold with her hair tied up, Maea pulled her legs up in the chair and worried at the hem of her trousers with a nail. "Honestly, I don't even know Flora. We've met all of three times, barely spoke during any of them, and yet she has a fully formed opinion on who I am and what I'm about. All she's seen is my mistakes, and it doesn't seem like she's got any interest in letting me make up for them. If she wasn't the queen it wouldn't be a problem, I don't need to be liked by her – but to live with that kind of disdain hanging over my head at all times...?" She shook her head. It just wasn't worth it.
"The thing is, though, that I really have done serious mistakes. If it had been a purely logical reasoning then I wouldn't even complain. I... as a diplomat I invited the leaders to a meeting, that was crashed by Dahlia. I stood up to her, asked her to leave as she hadn't been invited, but that put everyone in the room in danger. And thinking it would ease the tension, I left the room. Just.. walked out, while everyone else had to stay. And that's just the first fuckup - I completely understand if anyone would find that intolerable." Even speaking of it brought back the shocked numbness she'd been wrapped up in. That she had spoken at all, the lack of support from everyone but Hadama, the growing dread as the Reaper just smiled at her and all courage crumbled away...
I see a new horizon, holding on to hope
Say goodbye to all my pain when it's time for me to go
Say goodbye to all my pain when it's time for me to go
BASE INSPIRED BY ODD <3
